灵魂的空虚

那一晚
因为妳的一句话
刚被弥补的心灵
再度碎了
碎的灰飞烟灭
碎的荡然无存

为了不让她顾虑
继续生命的道路

选择

一个人独自神伤
独自流血

但 为了她
虽然已经结束
但 他心中还有她
为了她 心灵流血
“没关系 只要你开心就好”

滴血的心灵
漂泊的魂魄
空虚的躯体

那一瞬间 失去了方向

日月星辰 从不间断
朝暮不断 单思难解
虽近在几尺 实远在天涯

七天的欢喜
一年的回忆
一年的狂思
一年的悲叹
然而 从未停止过

心灵的粉碎
没人了解
弥补不了

破碎的心灵
灰色的世界
没欢笑 没悲伤
一切皆都淡笑而过
憔悴的灵魂
没了情 没有痛
不痛不痒
嘲讽世间
黯然销魂
他的灵魂 已然破碎 飘泊悲歌中 无岸可寻

“且夫天地为炉兮，
造化为工！
阴阳为炭兮，
万物为铜！”

天外飞仙 "小地瓜10岁生日的愿望"

Saw this paragraph while randomly surfing forums,
Its bout a birthday wish made by 地瓜 and 小七's child

娘亲，你在天上，过得好不好？
小地瓜很想念你……

今天是小地瓜的十岁生辰，爹爹扛了木梯带著我到屋顶上许愿。
爹爹说，把愿望写在许愿石上，用力扔向夜空，当它们飞得有星星那麽高时，愿望就可以实现了。
爹爹还说，娘亲你最厉害了，许下的所有愿望，都成了真。
那麽，娘亲，希望我也能做到。

小地瓜的愿望有好多。
小地瓜希望，傅爷爷早日康复，元宝叔叔和翠娘阿姨不要老是吵架，打架的时候也不要老是乱摔东西。
小地瓜希望，赛金阿姨永远年轻漂亮，小赛金快快长大，同我一起到学堂裏念书。
小地瓜希望，土地庙人气兴旺，香火鼎盛，土地爷爷常常出来陪我玩儿。
小地瓜希望，织坊生意兴隆，爹爹可以少点辛苦劳累，多点睡觉休息。
小地瓜希望，身边的所有人，都能够开心快乐，平安如意。

爹爹听著听著就笑了，小地瓜，大家的愿望都被你许完了，那，你自己的呢？
爹爹，小地瓜在你的照顾下过得很好，所以，不需要愿望啊。

娘亲，你知道了会不会怪我呢？
其实，其实小地瓜撒了谎。
其实，其实小地瓜一直一直都有一个心愿。
小地瓜想……想见一见娘亲……
可是，不能说出来。
说出来，爹爹会伤心。
因为，爹爹比小地瓜更加，更加，更加地想念你……

娘亲，你知道吗？
小地瓜小时侯是很不乖的。 看到别的孩子都有娘疼，有娘做香甜可口的饭菜，有娘给缝制漂亮的新衣服，有娘成天嘘寒问暖…… 这些，小地瓜统统都没有， 於是哭著喊著自己是没有娘亲疼爱的孩子。
爹爹就对我说，做人呢，要知足长乐。
过去再多的苦都不算什麽，从娶到你的娘亲那一天开始，爹爹是幸运的。小地瓜你也是，你要知道，你有一个很好很好的娘亲，所以你要乖，这样娘亲在天上看著，才会心安。
小地瓜的娘亲，是什麽样子的呢？
娘亲啊，是很漂亮很善良很可爱的……

娘亲有大大的眼睛，翘翘的鼻子，一脸的孩子气。
开心的时候，会笑得眉眼弯弯，脸上两个小小的酒窝现出来，好看得不得了；
生气的时候，会瞪著眼睛骂人，样子凶凶的，却忍不住的讨人喜欢；
调皮的时候，比起小地瓜来有过之而无不及，常常惹得爹爹无可奈何；
难过的时候，眼泪断了线，落在掌心收起，让人一心想好好呵护；
看夕阳的时候，躺在草地上，安安静静的像从来不做坏事的好孩子；
在成亲的时候，和爹爹偷跑出去，天上天下肆无忌惮的自由来去……

爹爹说了很多很多，语气一直都很温柔很温柔。他说得那麽生动鲜活，娘亲你的一颦，一笑，一转身，一回眸，似乎生生在眼前重现。
爹爹的眼睛笼著一层柔柔的光彩，那麽明，那麽亮，几乎都快要融化成水流下来。
小地瓜渐渐地明白了，自己的娘亲是天上的仙女，有神仙的本领，和凡人的感情。
你心疼爹爹，也心疼小地瓜，你是全天下，最好最好的娘亲。
只是，只是无法呆在爹爹和小地瓜的身边而已。

土地爷爷说，爹爹和娘亲，是经历了很多很多的苦难才走到一起的。从相遇，到相知，相爱，相守……每一幕，在爹爹心中，都印有不可磨灭的痕迹，即使 有天地之隔，爹爹也无时无刻不在思念著娘亲你。但是爹爹为了更好地照顾小地瓜，只能把这份感情藏进心底，藏得很深，於是难过也就跟著加倍。
这些，小地瓜都明白。所以，不想让爹爹更加伤心。

爹爹的伤心，是因为痴情。

每一年，爹爹都做一个风筝。仅仅做一个，却做得那样认真那样仔细，仿佛把日积月累的爱都灌注在裏面。做好的风筝上，都有娘亲你的名字，每一笔，每一划，情深意重。
娘亲的名字，小地瓜五岁的时候就会写了，是爹爹手把手地教：
玉。玲珑剔透的玉，晶莹圆润的玉，暖意融融的玉，玉小七的玉。
小。小小的任性，小小的淘气，小小的野蛮，小小的调皮，玉小七的小。
七。一分恬静，二分温柔，三分活泼，四分倔强，五分勇敢，六分坚强，七分执著，玉小七的七。
娘亲的影子，在娘亲你的名字裏。

每一季，织坊不太忙的时候，爹爹都会带了很多你喜欢的东西去黄花树下。常常坐在那裏，什麽也不做，就只是安安静静地坐著，视线落在遥远的天际，悠长悠长。
有时，剥开热乎乎的烤地瓜，任香气随风飘散，袅袅化作无形；有时，在风筝上写字，一句、两句，放下笔来也只是发呆；有时，会扶著空荡荡的秋千，轻声地念：小七，小七……
娘亲的影子，在娘亲你呆过的每个地方。

每一夜，无论风雨雪晴，爹爹一如既往地点燃那一条长街的灯。所有的寂寞和冷清，在一簇簇灯火中，幻化成暖洋洋的幸福。
被点燃的，不只是街灯，更是心灯。是一种卑微而虔诚的期望，是一场渺茫而清醒的希冀，是一份痴迷而坚忍的承诺……於是在回家的路上，永远的不会迷失方向。
娘亲的影子，在爹爹的心裏。

时间总是过的很快的。
小地瓜一天天的长大，爹爹一天天的变老，然而对娘亲你的爱，却是永远的光洁如新。
每个人都要经历一些痛苦与挫折，才能迎来尽可能多的幸福，苦尽甘来的时候，要懂得感激，不要太贪心……爹爹这麽说著的时候，嘴角带著满足的微笑。
可是娘亲，让我们一家团聚，真的是个太贪心的愿望吗？真的永远不会被实现吗？

小地瓜知道，外公外婆都是慈祥而善良的好神仙，那麽娘亲，可不可以请他们允许你下凡来，让小地瓜见一见你……只看一眼，一眼。
小地瓜想看看娘亲你的笑容，像爹爹说的那样，全天下最好看的笑容。

好不好，娘亲？
.........

她的分量

想起当时，
对你的冷漠，
对你的无视，
我后悔了。

想起当时，
不知何时开始留意，
你的回眸一笑，
开始感染了
一个损伤的心灵，
让它慢慢的恢复，
从新接受世间的美好。

想起当时，
一起度过的每分每秒，
依然如此的难忘。

不

应该是不能忘。
不能忘他生命中，
少之又少真正快乐的时光。

也许，

没人知道这些回忆的价值
没人知道它背后的寂寞
没人知道它所珍惜的

但

因为有了那些回忆，
无论路多遥远
中途的艰难
起点的种种阻碍

为了她，依然一直坚持继续
为了她，不能停
为了她，不能倒下

不能停也不能倒下，只是为了心中的她，只要是为了她，任何困难何足道唉！

Y?

四张机，
鸳鸯织就欲双飞。
可怜未老头先白，
春波碧草，
晓寒深处，
相对浴红衣。

七张机，
春蚕吐尽一生丝，
莫教容易裁罗绮。
无端剪破，
仙鸾彩凤，
分作两边衣。

九张机，
双飞双叶又双枝，
薄情自古多离别。
从头到底，
将心萦系，
穿过一条丝。

Words from the Sages/ philosophers/ great thinkers?

Bah ! ! ! ! ! all of them are mostly bull shit !

May be East Heretic is rite after all

乞丐何曾有二妻？
邻家焉得许多鸡？
当时尚有周天子，
何事纷纷说魏齐？

Claimed to be words of wisdom?

BUT y then are cases of notorious acts happening all around the globe?
Y are there such things happening to me

Dedicated to our "dearest" CT

forewarning: those who think this is a offensive article pls do not even bother to continue to read it. If you do i shall hold no responsibility over whatever reading this might have cause you. . . . Thanks And OF COURSE whatever written only represent my personal opinions . . .

After recent events that have happen between the class and Ms Tan Di Hui, our CT. Being a heretic with of course heretical ways of managing life. It triggered me to post when Ms Tan commented that she will look for our blogs.

I remembered when i first time saw her . . . .erm ok la but the moment when she speaks, i have to tell myself that i found someone who cant articulate well or even worse than me. Seriously, i never been the type where i would speak much and could go on for 2 or 3 days without opening my mouth to tok other than ordering food or answering questions . . . . .

OK that aside, i cannot believe that Ms Tan was given the task on lecturing one of the most content heavy and complicated topics such as DNA and Genomics. Due to her love of asking questions, we wasted more than half of a period in one of lectures. Although her intentions are good but seriously when people cannot do their problems is they really cant do. Ms Tan will force us to attempt the questions but in the end the answers are crap. Waste time write crap answers?

Seriously do she think she really very hilarious or cute when she made all kinds of "cold" jokes and funny names. . . . Erm . . . . . ya you know wad i mean.

E Learning is also another disaster, i remember i once did Bio E Learning wif some of my friends. The moment we hear the voice, some simply muted the audio or gave up doing the E Learning. Worst 1 even slept.

Although this post represents my personal opinion but according to "market survey" conducted across the board, demand is pretty low due to several major quality defects. Imagine me having to c her during Bio Lecture, Tutorial, SPA, Compass, PW. . . . . .

May Heavens help so that we will not get the same ST for next year.

National Wushu Competition?

Cant even imagine that it will be so fast . . . . Furthermore, i have been out of training for a week as i had sprained my finger during one of the practice and i cant believe that my event is TML lols. . . . . . .

However, i think i was just lucky that my number tag is "007" James Bond ehh? lols i know its a number many would want to get . . . . . . haha . . . . .

Again competing in the 2nd International Cudgel routine venue at Toa Payoh Indoor Sports Stadium. Against like 23 people if i remember correctly . . . .

I just seriously want to just perform my piece and slack off.

Good Luck to myself then .........

Huang Rong Pics

More of Ariel pictures from LOCH 08 . . . . hAHAHAHs

射雕英雄传 Legend of the Condor Heroes 2008

Legend of the Condor Heroes 2008 Opening Theme
2008 射雕英雄传片头曲

Legend of the Condor Heroes 2008 ending theme
2008 射雕英雄传 片尾曲

Hahas ! ! ! ! ! the drama of the year i have been waiting, although it has not been air in Singapore yet, but it was broadcasted in China since 19 of July 2008 at Xia Men, China.

Hahas ! ! ! ! Ariel Lin as Huang Rong (黄蓉) and Huge as Guo Jing (郭靖), i think the director made the right choice. Ariel and Huge make the best on screen couple i ever seen since 天外飞仙 also starring both as main protagonists.

Huang Rong protrayed by Ariel seems to surpass all the other versions of Huang Rong protrayed by various actors through a few editions of the novel made in to Television drama series.Not only did Ariel protrayed Huang Rong (one of my favourite characters in the condor trilogy or perhaps of all JinYong's novels) as what i thought she would be while i reading the book. Highly Intelligent, heretical, beautiful, adorable and most importantly her love for Guo Jing.

Its a good edition to watch. BTW i simply cant understand the fans of LOCH version 1983, though its widely claim that the 1983 edition is the most notable one, i however with my usual heretical stands and of my opinions do not agree. Babara Yung who protrayed Huang Rong in the 1983 series simply creates a Violent Huang Rong who almost every instance threw her frustrations at Guo Jing which is not that case in the novel. Although i myself is a fanof Ariel, i truely prefer she version of Huang Rong as what she given me as a viewer is that Huang Rong not only is intelligent, but also understanding and ready to scarifice herself for Guo Jing.

After all the talk, links to watching the drama series online in High Defination

射雕英雄传 2008

Have fun watching . . . .Go Ariel HAHA!! ! ! !!

FunFestique 2008 - - - -Hide Cat Cat

Hide Cat Cat ----- where the cat?

Haha . . . .today is the super big day for me sia . . . . MJ Wushu hosting a funfestique game "Hide Cat Cat".

Funfestique is an annual event organized by the 5 House Captains where each CCAs are susposed to host a game while the houses compete against each other in vile for the vuluable points needed to win the house cup at the end of the year.

Hide Cat Cat is originally not my idea but Jing Yu's idea. . . We did not really anticipated the overwhelming response from some houses but eventually we work out to the finalized decision and started work on construction of some of our clues as soon as possible.

Being the Head of the Funfestique sub committee, i am nonetheless, eager and anxious about the successful execution of the event. Despite of all the hard work in planning there were some problems on setting up the clues as it take more time than we anticipated, resulting in delay in starting of the game.

However all work well toward the end when everything ended, me and Jing Yu were so relieved as we had been working on these for days before today. . . . .

I really enjoyed my experience in the organising the Hide Cat Cat and would like to thank the Wushu Exco for allowing me a chance to take part in this unforgetful experience and not forgetting those who have render their help and support through one way or another. . . . THANKS ! ! ! ! !

Song Lyrics - 一眼万年

Title: 一眼万年
Artist: S.H.E
Featured: 天外飞仙 theme song

Fan Made video from Youtube, follows the flow of the drama

泪 有点咸 有点甜
你的胸膛吻着我的侧脸
回头看踏过的雪
慢慢融化成草原
而我就像你
没有一秒 曾後悔

爱 那麽绵 那麽黏
管命运 设定要谁离别
海岸线越让人流连
总是美的越蜿蜒
我们太倔强
连天都不忍 再反对

深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯
见证我们的极限
心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田
真爱怎麽会浮现

泪 有点咸 有点甜
你的胸膛吻着我的侧脸
回头看踏过的雪
慢慢融化成草原
而我就像你
没有一秒 曾後悔

爱 那麽绵 那麽黏
管命运 设定要谁离别
海岸线越让人流连
总是美的越蜿蜒
我们太倔强
连天都不忍 再反对

深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯
见证我们的极限
心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田

深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯
见证我们的极限
心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田
真爱怎麽会浮现

待渡过斜风冷雨
春暖在眼前

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