Self Reflection... Who am I ? ? ?

I dun know.... reflecting bout my self, i am very confused

1. I mostly want to be alone

2. Very cold at the exterior

3. Does things differently from the crowd

4. Have very similar character and beliefs as Huang Yao Shi/黄药师(character from Legend of the Condor Heroes)

----- Huang Yao Shi is regarded as a cultural heretic by the people in his time, and loathed the dogma of cultural rites in Chinese society, admiring only genuine honour and pure unwavering love.

5. Emotional driven

6. Likes only romantic chinese dramas and novels and songs (eg. 天外飞仙, 射雕英雄传, 千年泪)

7. Despises traitors

However, i do enjoy company and team work.

Dammed confused what do i really want???